was thinking about how i once told jd, that my maturity changes according to the person whom I'm speaking to... at sixteen i'd disagree with that, rather what fluctuates from time to time is my confidence level
but ah that's something that can be changed!
i guess part of living true life involves waking up everyday with a bursting heart, ending the night with a contented sigh, and being happy and knowing it. a good way to live.
am becoming increasingly aware of how happiness is really a choice you make. rather than indulging in melancholia, optimism is something you have to choose continually, with every new day - rather than succumbing to the plasticity of the sad air which wraps you round and suffocates you, mental fortitude is something that can be built up.
happiness is a choice, so is love, responsibility, discipline. sometimes i imagine myself taking an alternative road and having a completely different path, but i am trying to cut down on the what-ifs. plus if i were given the choice, i think i would sink if being thrown back into the past. (it is tiring to try to get things right all the time and) the future's enough to grapple with.
the past few days have been great, spent my public holidays really well --- am so thankful for human company :)
You can be happy if you want to, jas ( ':
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