faith

just finished writing my farewell letters --- the more I wrote the more I felt this wave of thankfulness surging in my heart. was really smiling through some of the letters and other times I just sat staring at the name on the paper because I had no idea where to start! it has been four years in NYMD, four amazing years that I will never trade for anything in the world. 

so many reasons to love this society, a company of dancers who never judges, and is always so supportive and enthusiastic, wonderful teachers and an amazing laoshi. dance itself. (what can compare to the feeling of creating art with your body?) but this passion is cultivated because of the people.

and words really fail me sometimes. so many feelings I want to express to these people but I know the memory, the raw emotions are so much more significant and precise than what flows from my pen, but these words also carry so much meaning.

the heart is a clock that beats time. (it is insane, b13 is caught in nostalgia tonight but quoting bei who quoted me though I don't remember saying this haha - not ready also have to be ready) feeling rather blessed tonight. lately there has been a verse stuck in my head: 1 Chronicles 28:20. Sean Feucht sings, "You're faithful till the end, You will finish what you started" 

(wrote this today! inspired by one of the juniors while I was thinking of the content to her letter : ) think it's quite an apt summation)

"She longed to be a 

dancing spark, a burning

flame, to be wholly known

and fully loved

In reciprocation 

sunlight streams into her heart

like little golden hoops, 

she finds herself

standing in the largeness of grace

with her head tilted up"