even kafka burned his books

am sometimes inundated by what needs to be done, but gosh i love being an arts student

switched on my computer to (1) print SEA homework (2) look up things for PW, and ended up scouring the internet for the past hour or so, poring over articles and journals and blogs and the news, ended up watching two tedtalks -

to me there is a difference between reading for school and reading for myself, and lately i have not been doing the latter very often, today L and i ended up carrying our books to chill and i managed to read, rather peacefully, for half an hour : ) i realised that reading keeps me very very sane - i was wide awake the rest of the day during lessons - and it feels so much better to really sit up straight in class to absorb and learn - there is always so much to learn

yeah. while reading i came across this which kind of spoke to me : )
 "And this is what writing is about for me—the way I can read a short piece and feel transformed within the small amount of time it takes to get from start to finish. There are deliberately cerebral pieces of writing that I think are fantastic and beautiful in their own right—but for me, in the end, I need literature to make me feel things. And not just a little bit. I want writing to be the most intense form of feeling that I can find. As if we’re putting words together in order to deeply alter or enhance or trigger our feelings – in order to feel more alive. This is part of why I write a story, why I put words together: because they are, in the end, a tremendous—possibly unrivaled—delivery mechanism for intense feeling. The kind of feeling that Kafka traffics in I find especially appealing because of its contradictions and conflicts, and because of the mixture of fear and beauty, the seemingly incompatible sensations are suspended and held aloft and presented to us." the atlantic

(lately i have been feeling a lot of things, but looking at people around me, and the imperfections we are stuck with, i think to be able to feel everything so keenly and vividly is one of the biggest blessings of being human)