and when at last

and when at last i leave again
this time, for a different city
forgive me for my imprecision
but on this heart's map
on a scale of 1:infinity
i am where you are

graduation tomorrow

looking back at my sec one posts and everything, every moment still feels so close to me

the past 4 years has probably changed me in every possible way.

okay i don't really know how to describe this feeling- it is so so surreal, so bittersweet, kind of exciting, kind of scary. the past week i walk into school at 7.10am, the time when the warm light really spills and catches the brick walls of the classroom block, i remember how i was so excited to come to nanyang as a sec one girl and definitely, there were times where i looked back, or moped about school life, and thought about how exciting it would be to graduate.

i guess perspectives are always different, at different times, like you can be feeling this way today but completely different tomorrow. i think all ny girls would agree that ny is such a wonderfully homey place - that right now the thought of leaving just feels so strange
i just pray that as we grow up, we never grow apart

- i think i'll save the thoughts of overwhelm for tomorrow, i don't mean to be sentimental tonight though i'm going to write a few letters soon, probably look through a few pictures, listen to songs that carry memories

mostly i just am so thankful that God has brought me through this : ) there definitely are regrets, things that i have not achieved, potential that has not been reached as i leave, but rather than staying in it i am thankful that God has given me just what i need. thankful that He has stayed with me as i journeyed through my ny years, thankful for the blessings that He has poured. He really, really is faithful to the end (this is not even an end, rather we are only nearing the bend of this winding winding road) and though my sec one self may not be very happy with some of the decisions i have made in the past 2 years, i am glad i've always held onto Him. 'my God is powerful, almighty to save.' and He is more than enough.