Time

didn't realise it was December until Bei texted me at midnight!!! was looking through my old receipts and letters and I still have last December on the back of my hand, and now Rachel is back in sg for her yearly visit and I spent my evening doing up eval plans and everything is so surreal! didn't get to travel this holiday and i'm really itching to go somewhere else, but i guess all the time spent reading new books + dancing new dances makes up for it, they both take me to new places. escapism infused into lifestyle.

okay I'm just really really really thankful for the people around me! really don't know how i can survive without you all, you know who you are :) ---

think time serves as a reminder, as a motivation to give it all because every moment matters. so hello December. the last thing i want to do this month is to rush

The clock is impatient and refuses to relent to anyone.
Principals, managers, presidents, kings, have begged for Time to let them
for they have unfinished work, but see how audacious the moving mechanism is
that causes people to go to their two different extremes, bringing out possibly the best
or inconspicuously the worst in them.
Carpe diem, carpe diem, we sing in our different melodies that add up to a harmony loud
and resonating like a disturbance in the soil
and as we try to scramble to make up for lost time, as we chase after the train we cannot miss
or the things that age would outgrow
Time settles itself into clocks and watches and computer screens and digital displays
and sundials and sunsets and in the flowers that are growing in our back garden.
Time watches, and she laughs, sometimes she means it, sometimes it is in forced chuckles.
We try not to understand even if we do.

The clock is patient if we look at it with our hearts.

We see people in different lights, in the same time. We treat ourselves a little more
lovingly. We cannot bother to fabricate words when all we have is the truth
and all we would ever have is the truth.
It is simple.
We do what we want to, and we don’t bother about how other people would
speak words of detriment and complacency into our lives because we have Time
on our side. We listen to her laughter. Time does not allow us to stop, she says
“go, go, go, we are running, running, running, not running out, not running out”
and it is tiring but we listen to her laugh and we feel like we are flying
The clock is patient because we are to make mistakes.
So the clock says, okay, let’s make some time for mistakes
and we do not like it, but okay, Time, let’s play a game if you want to.
We draw animals and cakes on weekly planners and we commit ourselves to ventures
lasting the month. Keeping tracks of our lives, we try our best to make Time worth her while.
Carpe diem, carpe diem, we sing and we sing out loud, we sing louder, until we feel
like we are about to burst.

There is no fear, no fear at all in being patient.
But I did not realize that November had just emptied into December
and I look at my resolutions, (I actually have resolutions), and I think to myself,
wow, Time