keeping the stars apart

"when I look up at the night sky and I know that yes, we are part of this universe, we are in this universe, but perhaps more important than both of those facts is that the Universe is in us. When I reflect on that fact, I look up – many people feel small because they’re small and the Universe is big – but I feel big, because my atoms came from those stars. There’s a level of connectivity. That’s really what you want in life, you want to feel connected, you want to feel relevant you want to feel like a participant in the goings on of activities and events around you That’s precisely what we are, just by being alive… "

sometimes, i think mathematicians and scientists are the real poets
lifegroup was at a far place today (bukit batok), by the time i was on the bus nearing home it was completely dark outside. there's this canal near my house. at night it's lighted solely by a uniform, symmetrical line of lights and as the bus rolls past this canal i see the lights do a line dance, from diagonals to a parallel to diagonals to perfect spaces in between. it kind of struck me what being great at math or physics could open up for someone. i have heard of people with double degrees in literature and physics and it sounds wonderful, to be able to know calculations that break down the celestial bodies that speak their own language. or how dimensions, like those lights, work. it is fascinating, like a map that God created with a snap of His fingers waiting for the world to interpret... yet i do not have the adequate knowledge. i can look out of the window at the cloudy night sky, and there are no stars. hardly any in singapore, but i feel them looking at me and which dead star gives it particles to me, i don't know. sometimes words are not enough to describe how vast, how beautiful the universe is, and even if there are appropriate words it would not suffice because the universe, is big and alive and growing. if we never manage to completely unfold the massive mystery in our universe, we can keep the wonder that keeps us staring up at night. such a gift.

overflowing with thanksgiving and this is how it should be all the time :) even if we are fickle.